His Presence

I shut my eyes tight
The microphone is so firm in my hands
I bounce like I keep stepping on snakes with venom, yet I am not hurt....

I don't even need to look at the keyboardist and the back up worshippers

I feel heaven
I taste the glory of God
I can't even feel my feet on the floors
I leave the Holy spirit to do His work
I know he is touching hearts and spirits

He's everything
Feeling everything
Seeing everything
Changing everything in obedience to God
Working everything to his supreme will.

I have always wanted this supreme being to engulf me and make me see life as it should be worshipping him. He heard me. He used me for his glory.

I feel alive in his presence and do u know the best part? I love him and I'll never leave him.

Love Always
Ireti

TELLING

This section was inspired by a friend very close to my heart.... He said to share some of my experiences as you I really would not know who would benefit from it.

Life is all shades you know and pretty interesting..In every relationship, your true self is involved and we begin to make the most painful mistakes when we tell white lies or hold the truth back....

My first nerve-unsettling encounter ate me up so much and I felt like I didn't know my body, I could be very firm, straight faced and official with other people, smiling only when necessary but around him I couldn't hold out for long.....

Seeing him with other girls was so annoying but i didn't have anything on him so.....I longed for a release. It was eating me up and you know what?  One day, I just told him, 'I have something to tell you'....After walking a few steps, I just rapped my speech ....his response was 'I knew all along'....and we kinda got closer from then.......

So looking back now, I don't think telling it was the smartest decision but I just couldn't live with the lie, but if I have anything to my credit now, its the fact that I was truthful and I cooked up the courage to TELL...We didn't date but life goes on....

There it is...
The truth will hurt when you deny it
Love happens every time.....
So spread ur wings and cut down on the blocks you've built....

U can also share your experiences with me on this platform....I'll be happy to hear from you..

Someone Heard Shhhhhh

So someone actually read and heard me, I would love to think. Thirty minutes of light is  a good start I think. But we have got to do better.

I embrace positivity not negativity
I embrace enthusiasm not ill sarcasm
I embrace optimism not pessimism
I embrace love not hate

Same goes for all that's happening in the world, Nigeria and beyond,  let's choose to do good in our own ways. Notice, I did not say " do good in our own little ways"  because there is nothing little about the every single good thing we do. 

Music Icon, Lionel Richie, once said, "Talent is a God given gift not a colour". The same applies. Your skin color is no better than the other person. Evey life is invaluable.

Saving a persons life is a great deed, so also giving a small parcel of your equally small food" to someone else. I am begging, let us stop killing.

I love Nigeria
I love Africa and
I love Gods earth.

Who's To Blame? PT 1

(Hey people, been a long time since I did this so enjoy and leave your comments. Bless Up)

Festac, Nigeria

“Doctor, can you give me a sensible explanation, how did I end up here?” Marilyn Duke looked the doctor over with an expression that was no less than irritation. “You don’t even know what happened to you, do you? Your husband brought you up here and had to leave for work later. You were unconscious” He leveled her stare. In that single moment, understanding flushed. Ronald had beaten her bad again. The last time, he had sworn with heaven and the sands of the sea that he would never hit her again. She never understood why she always forgave him and stayed back with him despite her resolution to not.

This time she would rather die than be mocked by herself again. “Thank you for your time doctor but can I be discharged?” This time the doctor was nicer “Marilyn, this is the fourth time we will be treating you of these injuries. This time, it is very serious”. Her chest did a fast take. She didn’t understand what he was saying but she sensed ill news. 

“Marilyn, you were three weeks pregnant but you lost it. I am very sorry.” “Ah”, she couldn’t say more, her eyes produced tears in a quantity she had never seen before, wiping was no choice as she chewed the edge of her skirt. The muscles of her face contracted and released themselves in succession as she kept sniffing in and out.

 

In that moment, nothing was more appealing than frying Ronald in hot oil or cutting off his tongue, hands and ears. She wanted to die. ”Err, Marilyn, your husband just put a call through, the nurses told him you’re better and he is on his way as we spe..” She didn’t even give him the luxury of finishing his sentence as she pulled Doctor Montgomery by his lab coat collar forcefully with all the strength she had just gained from recovering. “You will get me out of here this minute!”

Things should change

Its highly unfair that in a Country like this, the only reason when we see light for about six hours in a day is because there is a political aspirant around, How is a society expected to make progress when simple light to charge our phones, we don't have!

Now I  haven't been able to use my system for close to two weeks. Don't shake your head and say "you never see" because indeed light is our right and there should be a message to the people when there's a need for power to go out! A day is too much but here its like, "whenever, you see light, thank your stars and quickly plug your devices ki ina to lo"

All of these are very frustrating, I can't remember the last time I did GMAT tests with my system, I decided to make hard copies and the shop I got to uses generator CONSTANTLY. They told me to pay #30 for a page. That was absolutely unacceptable, I was going to pay her above #5000 if I printed all that I put on my flash drive.

What is it sef with this country, can someone tell me why I can't even have constant light, a truly working system( not overly expensive), a printer and a photocopier in my room?!

Why do I have to power water from a well every blessed time I need water in my house? It is strenuous and SO NOT a woman's job! What happened with the government water projects. What exactly do the youths have to look forward to in this country after striking endlessly, taking years off their lives. Why can't some schools release results of graduated students during their pass out? Must it be five years later?

I must also mention. Have you seen queues people form to collect their money at bank ATMS? People get angry that they have to queue for so long and begin to raise their voices at each other almost causing a riot. Mark my words, it is absolutely wrong for Nigerians to wait more than 30MINUTES to collect money that is surely theirs. If you wonder where I am talking from, Its Obudu, Cross River. Don't dare say its a small town and start comparing it to Calabar because when bad things happen? They start with the small cities!

Change must really come. I am bitter about all these but I hold onto hope ... If you think I have said something wrong or you want to hear more of the Nigerian child's conditions from my point of view, send  a mail to iretiyanu@gmail.com

I AM NIGERIAN AND CHANGE MUST OCCUR IN ALL SECTORS

You Can and will Be Better

GET GOING

Different thoughts are on my mind so I might not be able to tell it all in a very corresponding manner. First thoughts i wish to share revolve around the essence of life as we see it and know it to be. I know you all have puzzled back and forth what the essence of life is. For those of us youths trying to define our career path, I know it seems like a hell of a task, we have to sit with our devices and tabulate or group that which we know we can do and should set about doing, its in this same duty that we find out what it is that we aren't supposed to be doing.

You know, in my own search, I discovered the following things I do not excel at:

I have no desire to become an engineer of any type

I have no desire to sit at tailoring machine but I can critic and admire styles

I have no desire to be a medical practitioner

I have no desire to be a musician

These few....... 

THESE I KNOW I CAN DO AND BE BETTER AT:

I have a strong passion to reform the Nigerian Education sector

I have a strong voice and a body that moves well but i will not bank on it

I love children and look forward to doing a great deal for children, nursing mothers and the aged

I love to keep learning, learning from the works of other authors

I love to one day render life changing speeches

I love to bare my heart out through every piece I write and I would never stop writing

 

SO.....Maybe i haven't mentioned something you are good at or even if we do not have anything in common OR if we do, lets all keep this in mind, we all are different but at the end of the day we all are the same. My mother would fondly say when someone takes up her business idea, "The sky is enough for all birds to fly without touching each other". Love you Mama.

You Know It

At a point in life, we all ask ourselves what its all for, what makes it all worth the while. Bless the years of childhood where just the fact of our birth alleviated sorrows and pains that might have been before our birth.....

And then we grew, we grew nurtured by love and the sacrifice of the ones that loved us, we had almost everything that we asked for..... As we grew we realized our decisions were ours to make....Good and Evil, Self esteem and Self image, all developed.

But you know what, it wasn't the same for us all, I just narrated circumstances surrounding my birth and early childhood......Some of us grew up in harsher conditions, some of us even better than mine, the undying truth is that no one is going to want to listen to our excuse if we fail so right now, and I mean NOW we have to forge ahead and breakthrough against all the odds.....

Only then will our story be heard, only then will better platforms open up for us to replicate our works and build our work profile. Yes I said WORK, this is about harnessing our strengths, keeping at it.

We will only get blessed through our works so let's work it.

Psalm n Frankenstein

"Is there any place I can go to avoid your Spirit? If I climb to the sky, you are there! If I go under ground you are there! You'll find me in a minute because you are already there waiting...."

Then I said to myself "oh he even sees me in the dark, at night, I am immersed in the light."

"You know me inside and out, you know every bone in my body; you know exactly how I was made bit by bit, how I was sculptured from nothing into something."

"Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth,all the stages of my life were spread out before you before I had even lived one day."

"Your thoughts how rare, how beautiful, I'll never comprehend them, I couldn't even begin to count the many more than I could count the sand of the sea..."

Wherever you are...
Nigeria for example is quite big...

Me in South South, each and every one of us, detailed in our way, unique in personalities...The human mind would not be able to totally understand how magnificent God is. He specializes in details and depth.

In my study, I came across this book, "I Frankenstein" and i thought it odd but I read it. I was so excited when I saw the movie; I was like, "yeah, I saw the book". Victor Frankenstein's monster, got Victor sick when it came to life, scared humans out of their wits, deserted by all at first and in more years to come, sought after by demons and what not :D but later came to accept itself or himself as the case may be......

Its just a story but a very nice one.
Thank you for reading